Thursday, May 12, 2011

It's about 2 in the morning.

I am awake.

Mid-week and I thought that I have made up my mind.


To be honest, I am actually in the situation whereby either path that I pick, eventually will be a life changing one. Personally.

It took me about a month to draft out the thoughts, 2 weeks to really decided on it and 1 week to conclude on the decision made.

Now, I got to admit that I am not firm. Mind keeps on changing.

Got to learn how to stick with it, and move on. How ? Why is it so hard for me to do so ? Should I ask him once and for all ? Do I do what's best for me.

Friends telling me this, family telling me that, people head-hunting me, agencies offering me up to a 50% hike in salary and here am I, feeling sleepy and lost. I want to be comfortable, I want what's worth for me.

I need a decision that will satisfy my life. Damn, the 2 choices which keep on floating in my mind:

Bright career over the long awaited relationship.

Long awaited relationship over a bright career.

Think, rationally with my brain. Think, rationally with my heart.

What it tells you ?

Whichever that I'll be losing out, I know I will be able to gain it back in the future. Only that for now, I don't know which one to take and which one to let go.


I know you will not have the answer for me, but I just need a sign, a hint from you to help me decide.

Love and career, why do you have to cross-path now ?

How to take a chance on these ?


tuls said...

career first, love last.. period.

justin k said...

ain't no question, career has been trumping relationship for the past decade. But in the end, what do you want? Tune out the babble, listen to yourself and know what you want with your own best interests at heart.

If you need someone to lend an ear, just whatsapp me to go on msn, k?

kidz said...

is it that bad? do u really hav to sacrifice one for another and not take u for who u r? is it worth it? be sceptical at times..

Sky said...

agree with tuls, career will have to come first.

J-boy said...

Career seems the obvious choice, for me at least, because it is more definite than a possible relationship.

A job also tends to last longer than a relationship, because you are in control of your career, you choose when to stop or where to go.
But a relationship has another person in it, a lot of things are out of your control.

Ohh and another point, even if you choose the job, you can still have a relationship with that person rite? Or is the distance too far apart?

ooi2009 said...

i would pick some erm....,,, sex stuff and maybe some more sex

Chen Xing said...

@tuls: I know. But it's just so hard.

@justin k: I just want to be happy for myself.

Will do.

@kidz: It's not really sacrificing, but I have been wanting it so bad. And now, I sort of see both of it happening at the same time.

@Sky: But what if I can still have career if I choose him ? Like the phrase "if you can make it here, you can make it anywhere".

@J-boy: Yes, your last line....

@ooi2009: Sex ? Means you choose love. You must be a romantic kind of guy.

thompsonboy said...

at the risk of sounding like an old bitter queen...choose career...seriously. Unless that relationship has been forawhile and you know you can depend on it.

Chen Xing said...

@thompsonboy: Either direction that I choose, it's a risk. Somehow, I just need to stick with it once I have decided.