It's about 2 in the morning.
I am awake.
Mid-week and I thought that I have made up my mind.
To be honest, I am actually in the situation whereby either path that I pick, eventually will be a life changing one. Personally.
It took me about a month to draft out the thoughts, 2 weeks to really decided on it and 1 week to conclude on the decision made.
Now, I got to admit that I am not firm. Mind keeps on changing.
Got to learn how to stick with it, and move on. How ? Why is it so hard for me to do so ? Should I ask him once and for all ? Do I do what's best for me.
Friends telling me this, family telling me that, people head-hunting me, agencies offering me up to a 50% hike in salary and here am I, feeling sleepy and lost. I want to be comfortable, I want what's worth for me.
I need a decision that will satisfy my life. Damn, the 2 choices which keep on floating in my mind:
Bright career over the long awaited relationship.
Long awaited relationship over a bright career.
Think, rationally with my brain. Think, rationally with my heart.
What it tells you ?
Whichever that I'll be losing out, I know I will be able to gain it back in the future. Only that for now, I don't know which one to take and which one to let go.
I know you will not have the answer for me, but I just need a sign, a hint from you to help me decide.
Love and career, why do you have to cross-path now ?
How to take a chance on these ?