I thought it will be alright after this week.
Somehow, the feeling is still buried deep down in me
Perhaps it's proven that I over-worked myself and I just can't take in anymore stress, depression and unhappiness in the work that I am doing now.
If I am not happy, or I am feeling worried about work (though it's after the working hours), that's the clear sign that I need a new environment.
To make matter worst, now it has been revealed that I needed to attend a 3 months workshop, sacrificing the Saturdays (9am - 5pm) that I have from May till August. I just don't want anymore problems.
I don't like the word "compulsory" to be used upon me. Don't want to add one more "duty" to the jobs that I am undertaking. Attending the workshop would means that I will have to forgo any external opportunities in the near future as this will bind me for another 12 months.
Damn ! Not giving me any options, no choice but I will have to resort to...
*Pa, if you are hearing me, please give your son a little more strength to overcome this.