Wednesday, February 9, 2011

You wake up one day and suddenly everything changes.

Hang on, your bedroom looks the same, you turn around and everything else seems familiar. You walk out of the bedroom, and the door reveals the same thing you have seen the night before.

The surrounding barely changes.

You are wondering curiously. Confuse and back to your bed. You lie down and you get up. You position yourself at the end of the bed cracking your head and trying to make good sense on what's happening.

Am I not gay anymore ?

What if one day this happens to you ?

I used to talk about men, how I indulged in a day-dreaming moments on being in a wonderful relationship and living the fab gay life. And that just happened not so long ago. Now, I am merely recording down my daily activities, normal things in my life.

Not so interesting ? Maybe it's a sign of me moving on from the incidents which happened last year. The less I mention about them, the easier for me to let go. I question myself, have they really impacted me so much ? Though they can be so casual about it, I am always in a hurry to get an answer.

Has my interest in engaging myself with gay-friendly topics to blog about fading away ? Are my blog entries slowly turning "straight" ?

So, back to the short question right before the visual above, can one change from being gay to straight ?

Definitely a question to think about before heading off to bed.


Sam said...

Living a day to day routine doesn't mean not having a fab life, it just means that you have a fab life on hold until the weekend.

Doubt "straightness" is defined by how loud you live your life... :)

tuls said...

are you straight? hahahaha... i find some straight guys super hot :)

Skyhawk said...

Anyway, gay is born in nature, so can't be easily....

@Tuls: I am straight and hot...lolx!

Chen Xing said...

@Sam: Hi Sam, welcome to my blog.

Perhaps somewhere deep down inside me I am missing something, and hence why this entry is being written.

Believe I must not let the "fab" in me fades away. Different people will have their own way of being fabulous, mine just plainly being cheerful and making people laugh. Lacking of it the past few days.

@tuls: Unfortunately I am not straight. Tried to be, but failed miserably.

Aww..means I am not hot since I am gay.


@Skyhawk: Yup. Couldn't agree more. I believe I am born gay.

Not an option that I can choose. Destined to be fabulous.


savante said...

Don't think sexuality is all that fixed in anyone. It's fluid. Don't think so hard.

Chen Xing said...

@savante: Alright. Over analyzing can be very stressful at times.


alvin_t said...

u can bend a straight guy but u can nva change a gay guy to be straight ..

Chen Xing said...

@alvin_t: Are you referring to the Spaghetti rule ?

Then it must a great power for a gay guy to be able to bend a straight guy.