Wednesday, January 4, 2012

This works.

The more I look at the pictures of him and his boyfriend being together, the more easier for me to come to term that he is already attached.

There's no guarantee that I can be with him in the future but if I were to choose, I would have taken the choice of not getting to be acquainted to him in the very beginning.

At times, I feel like a complete stranger barely even knowing the guy that I have slept with and as time goes by, it's clearer now to me and that's the sign of healing, moving on.

Yes, I might not know what sort of arrangement you made with your partner/boyfriend. Should I even question the status whether you guys are exclusive, in an open-relationship, companion to each other or just buddy-in-bed as per say.

It's doesn't matter now.

I am taking the choice to view at you differently now.

Awkward.

13 comments:

Kaylex (CK) said...

At least you have the strength to see his picture. Putting salt on the wound heals it faster i guess.. ><

Danny said...

congrats.. now u can start hunting for the next ONE :)

soul232 said...

This is the hardest part of break-up and u managed to go through it. I'm impressed ^.^

ooi2009 said...

I WANT TO BE UR BUDDY IN BED!

Ev. C said...

As I would say.. One of the most difficult things to do in life is to see the one you love love someone else.

Stay strong. x

chaiminhuei said...

Salute.

J-boy said...

In a situation like this, I would listen to:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7UrFYvl5TE&ob=av2n

And I will be rocking out to it like a crazy bitch in my bedroom ;)

ooi2009 said...

jboy , why dont u update ?!

two horns child said...

That is a great step taken. Maybe tomorrow u will feel differently. Then we would find another reason to feel better. As long as we our self still could realize what situation we are in. There is still hope of us getting happier. :) It's true that u would be in pain now and there would be no way to avoid it. Simply because It's the process and it's the matter of time. As it goes by time would heal and when it does...one day you will look back and say...why does this even matter? then u will laugh about it. Through experience...Seeing the one you loved being well loved even by another guy actually makes you feel glad.

Chen Xing said...

@Kaylex (CK): I got to confess that I used to go his FB page very frequent back then.

But now, am doing fine and there's no urge to take a peek at it.

@Danny: Lol, I won't go hunt. But then if it's to come, then I will catch it.

@soul232: Oh no, it's not a break-up as we were never really together. It's more like the unreturned love.

:(

@ooi2009: Am still waiting for your picture to my email inbox.

Ev. C: Yup, indeed. Sometimes I wish that I am just plainly "cold" when it comes to this.

@chaiminhuei: Aiks, thanks.

@J-boy: Lol. Well got to say that I did that most of the time.

@two horns child: Very well said. "Does it matter now ?"

two horns child said...

??

Chen Xing said...

@two horn child: I mean, I got agree with what you have commented.

After few moments of being ignored by him, making me as if I am invisible. I am just glad to have this experience.

At least I know how to act on situation like this in the future.

:)

two horns child said...

Yeah.... it only makes us stronger right!!