Good Kind of Smell

So, I was back home last weekend.

Look what I've stumbled upon.

Miss you so much !

Oh my, that little bolster of mine from the good old days. Have that bolster ever since I was a baby and it's still pretty much there.

Everytime when I go back home, I will cuddle it to sleep without miss. I tend to fall asleep easily if the scent of the bolster is with me.

Hehe, am such a baby.

Mom tried to throw it away few times, but of course I forbid her to do so. One good reason to use, sometimes when my nephew comes by, he'll need a small bolster to sort of "tuck" him to sleep.

So, do you still have something from your childhood with you right now ?

Under Maintenance

This blog will be down for the weekend for some much needed maintenance work.

Nah, just kidding.

I think the only reason is because I am back home, the home-sweet-home and will probably be out and about hunting for good-food galore as well as taking in the breeze of sight-seeing with close ones.

Couldn't believe it, but it's always good to be back here.

Comfort of my bed, my smelly-bolster (yes, the one from my early days) - what more can I ask for ? An ideal weekend where family always come first.

Woots ! Off to bed now, and lets rejuvenate ourselves over the weekend.

What Doesn't Kill You

Yes, it will only make you stronger.

Somehow the flash-mob dance steps in Kelly's video sort of like kill the whole empowering vibe of the song.

Am liking the one below.

It's like so girl-power. And I thought the whole cast will be singing this. Can't wait to watch this episode.

How's your mid-week coming along ?

Flu Shot

Am not in the mood to play dress.

Been down with flu since last Friday, and up till now, still not getting any better. If yes, just a tiny bit of recovery.

Coughing like mad, feeling slightly feverish and I've been sleeping the whole past weekend.

Went to see the doctor, and all she gave was a cough syrup & pills for the flu.

Oh my, I need a vacation badly.

Upcoming weeks, you better be a good one.

Eat Your Heart Out !

I think thus far, I've been having a good working life.

Ever since I jumped to this agency, my usual off-work time will be around 6.40 pm. The latest I would have to stay would be 8 pm.

Today, it's a whole new record. I reached home at 10.30 pm (and I am still complaining about it), and the worst part, I skipped dinner. For the past 2 nights, consecutively. Perhaps the feeling of "not really hungry" tricked the stomach to stop asking for food or there's simply just no one accompanying me.

Sucks! Called few people, and it's either they already made plans or had their dinner already.

Well, I know it's an unhealthy lifestyle, and I am not supposed to do it very often.

I mean, if they would have prompted me and notified me that I need to stand-by, then of course I would have filled my delicate tummy with something. At least to munch on something light first.

Next time, I'll just stock-up more comfort food in the office and at home.

:)

Question

Have a blessed Valentine's day to all.

Last Call

I consulted you twice about my dilemma whether to take up the offer or not.

That was the very last moment, talking to you.

It was always a special moment hearing your voice as I tend to get happy, smiling every time when you speak. But that, you wouldn't know as for the past one month, nothing physical being invested in this interaction what we have pretended to call love.

You said you would call. When I asked again, I got the "I am not in the mood reply" and that was the moment when I decided to put a stop on the hurtful treatment that I am getting. Abusive, and it's painful to my heart.

It would be better for me to stop here, before I fall even deeper for you.

You were careful and secretive in telling me things. I am alright, we were just friends and I can't really demand everything or anything from you. It's like, whenever you have the time, you text me. So, who am I to you ?

It's just so weird for me to see a sudden change in your mood, affection and you are not even giving me the opportunity to share your problem with me.

Maybe, that's not what you are looking for right now ?

I have also asked, why there's no date or meet up to this, and your answer to me was "not yet".

So when ?

I guess it doesn't matter now as I am taking the quiet approach by walking away from all these. Erasing you from my presence, and let me move on with someone else - if there's someone else to begin with.

There's no point, when you have fallen for someone and all you got was the unreturned love.

Perhaps, it was all an experimentation. Lets not waste our time, lets not play with feelings.

And back to the very first line of this entry, you said it well. And I will take the advice given as the motivation for me to work harder in life.

Thank you.

Shantay I Stay, or Sashay Away ?

Once again, am about to make an evaluation to my career path and a decision on what's best for me.

To me, work is the same wherever you go so long you are still in the same industry. Passion will still be there, and the motivation would be the money that you are banking in for yourself, and for the future.

I was called by a friend of mine for an interview.

It surprises me that the opportunity came sooner than what I have expected. It went pretty well, and they are willing to give me what I want though the catch is, they will only take me in as a "contract" for the first 6 months to "test" me out first.

I have no complains about my current place. Manageable workload, flexible hours and that doesn't mean that I am already comfortable here. Still, you will need to learn how to deal with different personalities of people in the industry.

Which side is greener ?

I love the job that I am doing (though going over there would still be the same scope) and I love this industry.

Hope I'll find the answer this coming weekend. I was once told, you leave either because of money or because you are not happy.

Going Mechanical

Fans can make you famous, a contract can make you rich. The press can make you a superstar, but only love can make you a player.

Am listening/watching Madonna's new single over and over again. It's a quiet Monday for me, perhaps due to the overly-charged weekend which drained almost all of my energy and some soul out. Emotionally tired !

While on the above, am also reading about car engine online.

No, am not sitting for an exam on this subject nor am I on a vocational course. It's just that, the car created problems and mum lectured me for the lack of knowledge in this field.

Just don't know why but I show no interest in cars - except for the phrase "riding it". Now, I got no choice but to educate myself.

Gotten some useful information and cross-checked with what the workshop guy told me. So far so true, and what can't be used anymore needs to be changed.

It will definitely be another hole to my pocket, no choice but to fix it. This the part where I dislike the most.

Like what I stated in the beginning of the year, I'll need to be more discipline and be more aware of things surrounding me.

Give Me All Your Luvin'

Literally died. Out of air, paralysed and will only be revived this coming Monday.

The wait is over and Madonna is back.

Hooray !!!

Of for a little secret rendezvous this weekend to work on a very "fabulous" project.

Blog soon and be right back.

Pass My Sight

Say it right to my face, if you care. Say it to me, if you dare.

After nearly a month of getting to know him session, I have decided not to pursue any more.

Don't get me wrong here.

 I am not sad nor depress. Only that, after evaluating each act and respond I think that he is not the right guy for me. There's just no chemistry between us.

Question is, how can I tell whether or not there's chemistry or not when we haven't really actually go out on a date together ?

Well, it's simple. First sight, first impression. And that's the lasting one.

If you look at him, and he doesn't attracts you, then why bother continuing with the next course of action ?

It's not that I never asked or gave him the opportunity to meet up, somehow he's kind of reluctant and "rejected" a couple of time. It's alright. It's all an experience, to gather it and to improve in making better choices in life.

Putting the meet-up aside, the countless blast of text messages that somehow being interpreted as "what couple would send" doesn't seem to be helping at all, and it has added confusion to my thoughts.

If we are not serious or even exclusive yet, then why bother.

Call me a diva-at-love, but I would rather be chased than to do the chasing at this phase.

If there's sincerely no one, then I wouldn't mind walking on my own runway in life.